February 2010
“Today I saw cancer, cigarettes and shortness of breathe
this is why I walk to the ocean to swim with jellyfish
I may never get this chance again, this is why If you
want to kiss, you should kiss.
If you want to cry, you should cry, and if you want to live
you should live. You don’t have to love me. You already did.
At least enough to keep me smiling from South Carolina to...
January 2010
Total lockdown blows...
When I say total lockdown I mean the fact that I’m grounded, because my parents found out my dirty little secrets. Who told them is a mystery, but this blows. Goodbye weekend plans. Faaaack.
I was caught red handed, you know me like the back of your hand, there’s no denying that I just use you.
I’m trying so hard to stay composed. When I’m talking to people I feel fine, but when I’m in class and have to stay quiet, the thinking begins.
I haaaate
being sick. My throat hurts so much, I gave it to Rhyen and my mom, and my mom went to the doctor’s and they told her she doesn’t have to go to work for a week, and Rhyen can’t go to school for 2 days. Lyk WTF m8. Why can’t I get lucky and have the same fate, I wouldn’t mind AT ALL skipping health class tommorrow. But my insomnia is starting to kick back in. I...
It’s nice to know that snuggies are located next to the condoms at wal-mart.
“You have her, and I have my pride. Guess which one won’t fade.”
I really hate my counsler, I really think he smokes crack before he does my schedule changes.
That asshole gave me health. Is he trying to kill me?
But I have it with my Raul.
I give up. Endofstory.
“Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”
This goes out to, the always lovely, Vanessa
or as tumblr knows her, itsjustvanessa.
Oh how I adore that women, and hate her at the same time because she neglects me. None the less, I love her like Germans love beer, though I hated french, I’m glad I took it, because without it I would have never met her. Though we always cheated off each other, we passed. I love her, and the cute notes she gave me, left in my locker, and my bracelet!...
This is my town, this is my friends, this is my...
I’ve been neglecting Tumblr, it’s horrible. On Friday night I left my itouch at Monica’s and haven’t been able to get it back since, oh well. I’ve been really busy lately, and have been so busy, I’ve forgotten most of the things I worry about the most. Like this weekend was pretty fucking fun. Friday night I had to take care of Rhyen, with Cassy’s help of...
I thought I was pretty good at making decisions, but what just happened right now, I just proved myself wrong again.
Procrastination will be he death of me I swear. Writing a 4 minute essay(that has a complicated topic and will be performed in front of the class) the night before the assignment is due really really blows.
And honest to god, this has been the longest week of my freakin’ life, and when this week is over I’ll be so relieved, fuck exams.
Ask me anything. →
Never have I ever...
felt this crappy. I hate drama, I hate going days without sleep, I hate confused boy, I hate stupid bitches with no life, I hate semester exams. Really at this point and time I hate it all. I don’t think anyone really understands how badly I want to go home, sleep my concious away and forget everything.
But recently I’ve noticed everyone feels like this, an maybe it’s nothing to...
Sitting in the emergency room of Valley Baptist, I realize how much my family means to me, and how much I adore them. Honestly if I would die in there place I would, I really would. If I could take all their pain and they would never feel bad emotions or physical pain, I’d do it in a heartbeat. And never regret my decision. And by the way I watched Daybreakers day which is why I’m...
MLIA
I woke up with a hangover due to Morgana. She left the water bottle filled with Vodka in my purse and last night I was navigating through my room with the lights off, and on the phone with owl city, and grabbed my purse, took the bottle, took a huge gulp and swallowed it in a hurry to continue talking to O.C.
Like I said MLIA.
And that’s my story.
Owl city you lost the letter I wrote you. I hate you, and hope you read this.
Ahhhhh, and yet I still waffle you.
Don’t you just hate it when people change for the worse? But fuck it, your screwing yourself over.
Dear Maria, I wanna fall so in love, with you and no one else. You’re dressed to kill. You’re a saint, you’re a queen and I’m just another boy without a crown. You’re giving me such a rush. Sit back, gotta catch my breath. Poppin’ champagne. Let’s drink to feelings of temptation. I’m wasted, wasting time. Would you cut me with your kiss? I bleed, red lips you’re unbelievable. The taste of your...
354 days till Christmas
Right now in Math Models(the easiest class in the world) were doing absolutly nothing. How boring, and amazing. Yay for sleeping. :)
This year I’ve decided to throw all the grudges I’ve held, And basically intirely forget 2009. (It was a crappy year anyways) I’m going to be the old me, free-spirited without a care, and there’s going to be minor adjustments to my life, but nothing that can’t be replaced.
I hope this year is going to be the best, I’ve got high hopes beted on 2010.